kirinlust:

Okay, let me make this a PSA.  This is in regards to recent streams and such and this weird pedestal some of you have constructed and it’s really…It’s really something.

First of all, I want to say thanks to all my followers and fans, thanks to all my friends, old and new. I appreciate all the lovely compliments and support, and I’m very grateful for all of the nice people I got to meet through this fandom and just through drawing in general.  Love all of you guys.

Now that aside.  What makes you all think I’m some kind of art god?  Like, I understand most of you mean it through endearment, and that’s nice and all, but it’s not a compliment when you’re calling me some kind of god that’s unable to be reached, a goal that can’t be obtained or even surpassed.  Worse yet, everyone seems to talk about how shitty their art is, like they can never do better than me?  To me, that’s not a compliment.  To me it’s stressful, to me it’s being put on the spot, to uphold this kind of sparkling image.  I don’t like it, I don’t think it’s cute or awesome to have that kind of burden.  I’m not the kind of person that feeds off of that kind of energy.  I’ve met some pretty amazing artists through this fandom and through my art, and it really pains me when they just treat their hard work like a penny’s worth.  MOST of these people put more effort in their art than I do in a sketch, and it’s ridiculously underappreciated.  

I’m not here to make people feel like shit, or worse yet, carry that kind of responsibility on my shoulders.  I draw to enjoy myself and I draw to make other people feel good.  What I want is for people to look at my art and think “Hey, that’s pretty good, I’m going to keep drawing and maybe I’ll get better”  Or even “Hey, that’s pretty good, but I can DO better than that,”

Honestly people, I love you all, but this shit isn’t healthy, it’s not healthy to make me some kind of unreachable, unapproachable object.  I’m a fucking human being lmfao.  Treat yourself with respect.  Treat your art with respect.  How else do you think you made it this far?  Sheer luck?  You think you’re born with this ability?  Or that you’ve obtained it through some magical means?  No.  You earned it, you learned how to draw the way you did through sheer will and skill.  Just like how I have learned on my own, just like how I struggled and cried, and hated myself, and hated my art, and compared my art.

It wasn’t easy getting this good, and even now I still struggle with my own self hatred, so I sure as heck don’t need yours.  

Honestly, I really do love you guys, and this isn’t to make anyone feel bad.  Please get fired up, please grip your fists tight and draw on.  Be nice to your hard earned skill.